March 2012
I was so desperate for friends today that I stood in the rain for fifteen minutes with girls taking a smoke break when I don’t even smoke. I literally just stood and watched them.
textposter:
i get really upset when i think about how many people arent dating me
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At Renfew, indulging in any eating-disordered behavior is called “using symptoms.”
I’m so tempted to “use symptoms” right now. I can’t do this. Especially not on my first day, before I’ve even had any sort of therapy.
February 2012
“Yes: I am a dreamer. For a dreamer is one who can only find his way by...”
– Oscar Wilde (via le-sacre-coeur)
Turns out exercise actually does make you feel better.
At least, I feel less like shit than I did before the gym.
I’m having anxiety over the fact that I can’t log the fruit juice I had at lunch into my calorie counter because I literally have no clue what kind of juice it was. I mean, it was good, but I can’t name the flavor. And it looked like pee. So.
I have a net of 245 calories.
Can...
It starts tomorrow. I’m freaking out. Don’t tell me it’s going to be okay.
Arbitrary Concerns I Have:
The food won’t be good. And contain things I don’t like, such as tomatoes.
The other girls will be lame.
No one will understand my sense of humor.
I won’t make friends.
I’ll confuse the doctors with how contradictory I am.
Things I’ll Miss...
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Day two: A physical feature you like on yourself
Oh, Lord. Um. I like my skin color. And my boobs.
I was productive as shit today, y’all.
Got my nails done.
Finished my art project.
Bought a senior banquet dress.
Didn’t purge.
Didn’t binge.
Bought birthday gifts for my lovely Elise, and visited her for a little while.
Watched Kathy Griffin standup on YouTube for a good two hours.
:D
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hush-little-monster replied to your photo: Classy LBD. I’m thinking red heels/lips/nails?
Where did you get that dress?! And you are not fat.
Boscov’s. :3
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